Dear Sydney,
The exact thing that we have been trying to avoid these past few months has happened. Two mornings ago you woke up with a stuffy nose. I talked to the cardiologist about it and she said that as long as it is only a stuffy nose then they will go ahead with surgery. If the stuffy nose turns into something else, however, then I need to call her back and tell her. Sore throat, fever, or cough are all things that we are hoping to avoid. Today, I am thinking that you have an ear infection. First thing in the morning I am calling your pediatrician to get you into the dr and have them check you out.

With your surgery only being 5 days away I can't help but obsessively pray that this goes away before monday. Monday is when they do the blood tests to check your white blood cell count to make sure you are good and healthy. The last thing we want is for them to cancel the surgery. We are so close! If they were to cancel it, they would re-schedule the surgery for 3 weeks later.

Your health is more important to me than anything so if we need to push it back- that's ok. But we have prepared ourselves mentally for this to happen on Tuesday and I think it just might send me to the looney bin if it doesn't. But then again...I think this whole thing has already sent me to the looney bin so maybe its too late.

You don't sleep. We were awake with you for about 5 hours last night. We are exhausted and so are you. We can't lay you on your back or else you cry because it's hard to breathe so that means we either have to prop you up with pillows or just hold you. It is so hard to watch you struggle even more than you already do.

All those readers out there- I know we have asked a lot from you. But, if you could just add to your prayers a plead for Sydney's good health. Prayers work. He is listening. We are so grateful for you and your faith.

If you only knew how many people watch over you, Sydney. You are loved. Especially by me.

Love, Mom